thought #60- i want want want

when i was younger (and to this day) my mother used to tease me relentlessly whenever i began the want list. "mum i want this and i want this and i want this" she would mimic me in an annoying nasaly tone in the hope of making me stop. usually it didn't work until i got slapped in the ass and told to shut up (haha im kidding, my mother usually just said "aiii nako you always want everything!"). i don't think we ever grow up from wanting things. its an innate human characteristic to desire. to want and need things, people, affirmation, materialistic wonder, love, satisfaction, purpose and the list continues endlessly.

i think we often get carried away with wanting so much and expecting beyond our physical context that we forget the joy of giving. we lose sight on the value of the giver because we're so focused upon the gift. its cliche i know, but its true. it rings truth as i find myself convicted over the numerous times ive allowed material wonder or a fleeting euphoric moment with a person fuel my happiness. when in fact i have forgotten purity and joy that comes from giving, physically and emotionally. i know it sounds like sappy bullshit again but in a world where acquiring and possessing is the sole agenda its nice to think that there are still givers in this world, without any hidden agenda or malicious intentions. they want to give because they are able and willing.  but of course this doesn't give you permission to abuse so don't be a bitch and keep taking haha.

i often think if one person would take the time to give to another, then perhaps the world would be less selfish and more gracious. simply because a stranger experienced a moment of generosity and passed it on. a chain reaction i guess. so next time i complain and whinge and moan about wanting something desperately, i guess ill just pause and think "have i given anything lately?"

love,

ps. i know, really irrelevant. something i want in the future, i guess haha.