thought #46- years don't die. they just grow up.

as my lovely friend annelise holwerda once wrote on my facebook, i can wholeheartedly agree with this statement as 2010 begins to blossom and change, change and more change moulds my world. it feels my days are likened to clay at the potter's wheel. cheesy, hallmark-like simile but it does feel that so much has altered and is altering and being examined, analysed, discarded and refined. it's almost scary, being in such a vulnerable position but i guess this year is the perfect time to do so. the time where you are no longer a child and where the future is much more closer than you once intended it. where independence is at your grasp and where big decisions surpass which party to go to on the weekend and whether to do that math homework or not (how i miss the simplicity of secondary schooling haha).

suddenly you are faced with life. frightening haha. well i guess all this profound talk was spurred by todays happenings in which i enrolled at uts straight after work with kuan. it was a brilliant day amidst confusing timetable selections, the awkward weather and even awkward train ride with an old man rocking back and forth behind us. we encountered strangers (random abc radio lady questioning my opinions regarding virginity and tony abbott haha) and friends (e.g. eugene the random) and whoever is defined by the status in between.  after being dropped off by kuan, i returned home tired but fighting the desire to nap seeing as it is powerhouse soon and i am adamant to battle laziness and attend. my day concludes here and so i return to the glories of technology, pondering about the subject which has been in my mind for the past week or so now- past, present, future.

love,

ps. cute picture, and yes i know it has no relevance to the entry haha.
pps. this reminded me of playing super mario on matty's iphone! i miss you, new unexpected friend haha.

thought #43- why i can't be anti-social tomorrow

as much as it repulses every feeling and natural operation of my personality regarding befriending strangers, i will make friends with unfamilar faces. mainly because i will be in queensland, without knowing anyone personally but hopefully finding solace and comfort in a few people who attempted to not be anti-social themselves haha. it is a bittersweet feeling as i write away, knowing very well that the next proper post will be a week from sunday (depending upon the internet connection, virtual facilities and time in brisbane). i am excited and enthralled to be experiencing such independence and liberty and hopeful to meet (as sappy as this sounds) "life long friends" which an experience of this calibre can only offer haha.

on the other hand i am hesitant to leave, and although one week will transitorily pass before i can even pay attention, knowing i will have to sacrifice the little luxuries of my regular life. little things like skyping until the wee hours of the morning with kuan, complaining before, during and after work haha, messaging matty almost (if not) every day, the incessant chatter of my parents, even the iotas of life like a message or comment from facebook or the comfort found sleeping in my own bed. but nevertheless it will be splendid. hopefully i will be able to recount most of the experiences and encounters :)

well i shall be off, tonight is another birthday party to attend before i am to board a plane in the morning and hopefully avoid any tourist symptoms and embarrassingly getting lost haha. until next week, be safe and take care my lovelies.

much love and will miss you all,

ps. this picture doesnt really give brisbane justice... but oh well haha.

  

thought # 40- why i envy sarah michelle gellar

because she is married to freddie prinze jr. and yes though he isnt as hunky as he was in his prime my goodness how gorgeous he was! he was the eptiome of late 90s teenage movies and his adorable face and roles which often involved the popular, handsome protagonist who falls for a quirky, unconventional yet also good looking girl is what truly makes you froth. i mean this man even looks good in shiny, baggy, unforgivable attire of the decade. so it wasnt a surprise for me to comment on how ridiculously good looking he was every ten seconds whilst watching "she's all that" with kuan yesterday haha.

on a less superficial note, yesterday's event were spent going around the world with kuan in which we purchased the yeah yeah yeahs album, went into glue and said hello to kuan's lady admirer haha and then went to blacktown in which we visited macy, ate at sushi bay and indulged in purchasing old cheap teenage films which fill us all with nostalgia and youthful euphoria. we returned to his place and watched "she's all that" before arriving back home.

i must say it was a splendid day and all that occured. regardless of susie dogging me on our supposed shopping playdate (haha its ok babe, i still love you!) i was much compensated in kuan's company. well before i self combust due to the immense heat, i shall say goodbye.

love

ps. i know he doesnt look like this anymore but whatever, he'll always be etched in my memory like this haha.

thought # 37- i'm a university admirer

as in i have a feeling ill be one of those sad little nerds who will live, breathe and thrive in the glories of tertiary study and find excitement over lectures, handsome strangers who walk past daily, coffee and lunch dates with old friends and new ones and the liberty of no uniform and hair regulations. i have a feeling i will never really get over the university phase haha.

i can affirm this thought whilst walking through usyd's prodigious campus and feeling utterly at home. poor kuan and mads who had to witness my excitement and share in my jubilation to be at a mock lecture. thank you both for coming with me. i love you my favourites who put up with my nerdy self. regardless if usyd will be my university (for first year anyway) i am beyond excited at finally beginning life after high school and expectant at what this year will birth and bring.

so yesterday's much tiring but splendid day involved meeting with kuan at blacktown, in which we unexpectedly bumped into ced on the way to work. after never finding mads on the train we eventually sighted her at central and began our walk to uts. the straightforward trip was interrupted (on a good note) by the darling josh baissari who was also on his way to uts. after collecting our freebies as is always an advantage, we caught the free bus to syd uni and after momentarily getting lost and shotgunning each other to ask questions, we managed to attend the business lecture and collect information etc.

we went to lunch at a korean bbq thanks to kuan and enjoyed our meal like tourists haha. we waited for the bus to unsw but unfortunately this never arrived and out of boredom, tire and a compulsion to shop and consume gelato we decided to go to town hall and go to qvb. we went to myer and spent a ridiculous amount of time dnming on a couch made of grass... this was without a doubt a highlight of our whole adventure. after mads bought her gelato (relationship therapy) and headed home. after mads left us at westmead, kuan and i continued to blacktown where we had boost and waited for his mother.

after being thankfully dropped off by kuan's mother, i arrived back home with aching legs, much information and my mind decided and set upon which university. hence the conclusion of my day haha. over all the day was splendid, hot, intriguing, educational haha and grand.

love

p.s. once again we should of taken photos!

thought # 26- my feet are going to fall off

literally, i can almost feel them unhinge and segregate from the rest of my anatomy. today has been an eventful but tiring day. i am so worn out that as i write i no longer have the ability or discernment to realise if i'm making any sense as well as to simultaneously keep my eyes open. i am so sleepy, but its only 7:40pm... i'm not that pathetic am i? haha.

well today consisted of singing at glenwood high for the teachers as a short appreciation morning tea (a subtle outreach). then my first shift back at work occurred. im glad to recount that my new manager is a paragon and is very nice, that i still have got the hang of operating things and though my feet feel as swollen as if a thousand bees and insects have fed on them, i still love my job haha. three hour shifts do feel long but once i get the hang of it once again i can manage the monstrous ten hour one next saturday :S

after work kuan picked me up and we had (free) coffee at starbucks. it was lovely to finally get to talk to my skype friend in person with him actually remembering who i was haha. he remarked that i was quiet but i blame it upon my red feet and insomniac sleep of tossing, turning and awaking at least ever hour of the evening. after i arrived home and had a splendid catch up/ dnm with my mother. now i am about to pass out in fatigue, im so not used to early mornings and manual labour anymore haha.

nevertheless splendid day, thanks kuan for making me smile and not crashing the car haha.

love

p.s. this is really irrelevant to the post but jonathan rhys-meyers is gorgeous and will let me sleep well tonight haha.

p.p.s. my dear lord im so sleepy haha