thought # 48- no mind, never matter

if i have learnt anything over the years regarding the heart, it would have to be never, never, never overanalyse. it's a bitch; its a habit that often extends its wretched arms to other parts of your life to the point where you find yourself staring at inanimate objects such as a water bottle and overanalysing the condensation of its insides and every curve and dent of its plastic figure. it's simply not healthy haha.

but in all seriousness, there is a difference between analysing and overanalysing. just as there is a difference between foolishness and wisdom. in every part of life it is necessary to pause and as i reiterated in thought #47 be silent, and analyse life. understand where you are going, who you are, what you live for, why the things that matter most to you matter and such. its not abnormal to be profound once in awhile haha. but then draws a thin line between analysing and overanalysing. when as ben kweller once sang in panamanian girl  "im jealous of the things that aren't even there." becomes a nasty truth then you may have a problem. no one likes an overanalyser. because once you become an overanalyser you end up adopting traits of jealousy, clingyness, trust issues, paranoia, schizophrenia and the list potentially perpetuates.

i recall, in my naive and ignorant days of 13years+, thinking that everything a guy said or did had to be deciphered. and i mean this is true but i would spend days agonising, without sleep,  and in the company of other naive and ignorant females wondering what "i like you" really meant or "i don't like you" really translated to. as ive grown older (and very arguably wiser haha) i've come to this point where i like you means i like you and i dont like you simply means i don't. i have given up the embarrassing sleepless overthinking and have come to understand that its better to ask if you don't truly comprehend and leave it as it is. i'm not saying don't ask questions and i'm certainly not saying to stop thinking. but sometimes your mind is better left to exercise over the more important issues of life.

so i guess next time if he/she says "i like you" embrace it, don't rip it apart, don't analyse syllabically, just accept it simply for what it is.

love,

p.s. i dont know why i love this photo, i know its morbid haha.
try overanalysing this? haha