thought #63- be be your love

i don't think ive posted a song as a thought ever. however due to the busyness of life as we speak and a concotion of tiredness and humidity from photoshoots in the sweltering sun with my gorgeous love eleanor clark, has caused me to think of nothing but this oldie but goodie. a song i have always adored, and yes it was on sisterhood of the travelling pants and yes i am unashamedly able to say that it was a good movie despite the horrible stigma i had created prior to viewing it haha.

enjoy lovelies and be sure to check friperie tomorrow night, photos will finally be up!

"Be Be Your Love"- Rachael Yamagata

If I could take you away
Pretend I was queen
What would you say?
Would you think I'm unreal?
'Cause everybody's got their way I should feel

Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real
Want to be your everything

Everything...

Everything's falling, and I am included in that
Oh, how I try to be just okay
Yeah, but all I ever really wanted
Was a little piece of you

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

Everything will be alright
If you just stay the night
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

I want to be your love, love, love 


without disrespecting the brilliance of this song, i believe my situation sings more
"you don't want me to be, be your love, but i want, want, want to be your love" sigh haha. get over it abi, you're pathetic haha

love,

p.s. not sure if ive used this pic before. but its worthy of a repost. i definitely feel like this lately. stuck to a fucking wall i want to love and hate simulatenously. just like falling for people, pathetic really haha. 

thought #62- say what you need to say

i apologise for the absence of my daily entries of life, love and the shit that i get up to on a daily and banal basis haha. it finally appears i have an excuse and i have come to notice that productivity is a far greater severer of social ties than boredom and laziness. this past week has been occupied with other jealous priorities from university orientation days, work, friperie, friends, gigs and all sorts of random days/events.

for a hacked, shortened and brief recount of events, orientation on friday was splendid. it was the first time i have woken up at 6am in a long, long time. it was also the first time i had to run for a bus. my goodness, my little unfit legs and clear drowsiness from a sleepless night was a lovely combination to start my day as a soon to be official university student haha. after momentarily losing my co-ordinates between town hall and central, i engaged in a quick breakfast and an equally quick perve at the school boys congregating near maccas haha.

after i caught a train to central and engaged in a lazy trek towards uts (temporarily pausing for a caffeine fix... i was dying haha). being sandwiched by thousands of students had both its positive pros (subtle perving, gorgeous people, potential lovers, strangers who are soon to be friends etc.) and negative cons (getting caught whilst subtly perving, gorgeous people who are so intimidating, potential lovers with amazing girlfriends and potential heartbreakers, strangers soon to be enemies etc. haha) nevertheless the experience and the uni was grand and i am oh so excited and expectant at what this year will bring. i feel like im in year 7 again, a little lost and overwhelmed but hoping for nothing but the best.

this wed is my last shift at betts until i decide to christmas casual it next year. im slightly saddened but hopeful that i will find a replacement job soon. im praying that people call immediately as my poverty-stricken university student status is looming and freaking me out haha. i know parents will provide, as lovely and amazing as they are, but the extra income would definitely not hurt.  speaking of extra income, friperie is opening oh so soon. i am beyong excited and hope that the idea will hit off with everyone! the extended garage sale is the only fun and semi-brilliant thing that i've come up with since origami cranes and insane individuals haha. so yes i know you must be sick of my self-advertising but please check the website out and tell everyone about it!

so that is the brief revelations of my life as we speak. anything social is being fuelled by brief coffee/shopping/movie playdates with lovelies however the start of university can only mean shortened freedom and more behavioural management theories and accounting equations to think about *sigh* haha. the love life is terribly unattractive as we speak haha. it is this horrible concoction of loneliness, uncertainty, wants, rewinds,  fast forwards, flattened expectations, hopefulness, pulverising of the heart and patheticness.  i only wonder when the straight forward will shine its little face on me and hope to learn how to not be affected by disappointment. essentially, id like to learn indifference. to save myself from believing things could be mutual...

oh well. on with life, friperie in two days!!! thats all i needed to say haha.

love,

ps. found this brilliant photo on my friend's facebook. for stalker purposes i shall leave him anonymous, but yes. what a lovely piece of art.

thought# 61- my new baby

to be honest, i haven't been in much deep contemplation lately, simply because my mind has been preoccupied with the impulsive birthing of a totally foreign concept to me- online thrift stores. out of a burst of inspiration due to a random encounter with stores such as http://shopenvanite.blogspot.com, as well as deep contemplation regarding the prospect of employment whilst in university, i decided that i could rid myself of less clutter and more bones through a simple, straightforward thrift store. first, let me reiterate its more of an extended garage sale where my lovely shit will be for anyone and everyone to view and purchase (provided you live in sydney) rather than a high end vintage boutique similarly to the ones you froth over at newtown or surry hills. i wish i had enough beautiful stuff but most of my pieces are ugly, weird, out of date and could use some alterations to look better. hence why i'm selling them dirt cheap and allowing you to use your creativity and embrace them as your own.

friperie, so far has been the most painless, effortless birth i've had (and might i add my first haha). i feel like mary (not intending to sound sacrilegious) haha but anyway, it feels like a brilliant idea that may totally flop or not. im hoping for the later. so spread the word friends, and let everyone know. friperie (french for second hand store, because im a french wannabe as you all know haha) will be officially launching its first range of items for sale next week 23/2/10. so don't miss it. things will be ridiculously underpriced as im attempting to get them out of my house so snag a bargain.

visit http://friperiesydney.blogspot.com for more details. thanks and hope to see you as my potential customers haha.

love