thought #187- blood & bone

Day 14: A photo of one of your favourite family members

i have an innumerable number of fave family members in my clan. so many lovely aunts, uncles, cousins etc. obviously i would say my immediate family are my favourite but apart from them, my extended family, the ledesmas (especially bianca and lora), are one of my dearest and cherished relations. even though we're two cousins apart and quite extended as blood lines go, they have been so lovely in accommodating me whenever i visit the phils and truly make me feel as if im one of their own.

i especially adore how i get along so well with bianc and lora, how we find mutual interests in music, clothes, shows and life in general. i miss them terribly and can't wait to see the whole gang pia, zach, tita nene, tito dodge, lola lettie, kuya miki & francis, sean & pat and the list continues. hopefully i'll get to visit soon and relive old memories and make some new ones along the way.

love,

thought #184- chicks before dicks.

Day 13: A photo of your best friend(s)

 

although i rarely get to see these two amazing people, madeleine astle & samantha nagle,  i still consider them my two best friends. i adore them immensely. i still manage to be able to heartspill at their presence regardless of the absence and distance. we may have new friends, we may be walking our own respective paths and living our different lives but irrespective of this, somehow at our reunions- be it coffee, dinner, drinks or a party- we return as we never left. still being able to share secrets, laugh at our adventures and remain a call or email away. that is the very definition of best friends. these two crazy bitches haha. bless them.

love,

thought #180- shake it like a polaroid picture

Day 12: A photo of you

the most recent luvo. i salvaged this beautiful pleated silk bottle green blouse grandma was about to dispose. considering wearing it for chrissie hmm.

ps. can't believe christmas is so soon. so is new years!

love

thought #179- movies are not a representation of life

Day 11: A photo of your favourite film(s)

to be honest my list is almost endless. but to save us all time i'll cut it down to my top 5.

1. spirited away/howl's moving castle. these two miyazaki masterpieces are tied in my adoration for them. these are flicks i could honestly watch over and over and over again.

2. fight club. i adore this film! everything from the extreme violence, ridiculous echoes of nihilism and anarchy to brad pitt half naked in a brawl. a definite fav.

3. amelie i mean what's not to love about this film? everything from the french language, quirky little outbursts of trivial yet meaningful information, a cute love story. je t'aime amelie!

4. sixteen candles. i am a sucker for 80's and 90's teen movies. everything from the breakfast club, st. elmo's fire, pretty in pink to 10 things i hate about you, she's all that, the rules of attraction etc etc. love them all. sixteen candles is just one that hits the spot each and everytime. plus the leading guy is cute and plus it's a joy to hear molly ringwald scream "it's my fucking birthday!" haha

5. the virgin suicides. i'm also a fan of quirky offbeat movies that involve a narrator. yes it's depressing and creepy but i really love sofia coppola and she truly doesnt disappoint with this one.

love

thought #177- from the tongue of infants and babes

Day 10: A photo of you as a baby

i actually don't have a baby photo saved to this computer so i'm going to show you a photo of yours truly as an infant. close enough.

i believe i was five in this. sporting my fav personalised sailor hat from disney land and rocking the double denim. i still look the same haha

love,

thought #173- blood bonds

Day 9: A photo of your family

they drive me insane, i drive them insane. God, how i love them.

love,

thought #172- for the love of julian

Day 8: A photo of your favourite musician/band

to be honest, he isn't my favourite musician of all time. blasphemy i know. there's just so many people whose sound blow my mind. but julian casablancas is definitely my favourite musician to look at haha. no competition there.

love,

ps. the pleasure's all mine, jules.

thought #169- love is not the absence of hate

it's the absence of fear.


Day 7: A photo of someone you love

to be honest, there isn't a lot of people i truly wholeheartedly love. i know that sounds monstrous and horrible but it's true. i mean of course i adore my friends and favourites but at the end of the day if someone were to ask me who i, apart from God, unconditionally love, sacrifice myself for it would be my parents. i mean yes we get into a lot of shit and arguments and sometimes they drive me insane (though i suspect the feeling is mutual) they have loved me (by default) ever since i came into this world and i know whatever happens they will never cease to. these are the people i can trust, who look out for me, who try to understand me, who want what's best for me even if i can't see the benefit. at the end of the day these are the two who would dive in front of a bullet for me. i'm there one and only and i love them immensely.

it kind of saddens me when i hear kids saying how much they hate their parents, and i mean yes there are times when their stubborn, tough love makes you want to punch someone in the face, but your parents are the only ones you've got. you don't get a second pair. i say make the most of what you've got. love what you have. see things from their perspective and even at the points you disagree, respect the difference. i hate to sound like im lecturing, because i'm far from the perfect example of how to be an immaculate child, i just know there's no gain in being depressed and distant with your parents. i've tried it before and being angry is just shit. you don't gain anything being the "misunderstood" immature delinquent. i know, i know cheesedick suck up spiel. but it's the truth. until i find a man who is synonymous with love, the closest platonic thing i've got are my two old farts. bless them.

love,

thought # 168- laughter is the best medicine

cliche but true.


Day 6: A photo that makes you laugh

There are honestly a million. but the first that caught my eye is a tumblr treasure. i don't even remember on whose tumblr exactly i just remember thinking it was hilarious. enjoy!

love,

thought #166- me again

Day 5: A photo of you

i think i've had my fair share of narcissism on my own blog so i hope they don't ask for a similar request again! the latest luvo in the innumerable pile (how embarrassing).

love,

thought #165- take me away

Day 4: A photo of the last place you went on holiday

it's slightly depressing to think that my last real "holiday" was almost a year ago. although my 2010 has been filled with much adventure and change, it has sadly been starved of a proper holiday. so i must say the most recent is schoolies. and what a holiday it was. it epitomised the meaning of a vacation, utter relaxation from the thoughts of hsc, not a care in the world. one week away from family, civilisation and the suburbia we call home. one week of recklessness, drunken nights, hot beached days and feeling all mature cooking and cleaning. more than friends feelings emerged, dnms made, things we regret, things we don't but all in all it was one hell of a holiday. i do miss it. i need to be taken away this summer again. rid myself from uni, responsibility, thoughts and maturity and just chill for old times sake :)

love,

thought #164- happiness is not an emotion, its a state of mind

Day 3: A photo that makes you happy

i have many photos that make me happy. it's almost impossible to simply select one. i've decided to base my answers on this challenge in regards to 2010 (unless instructed otherwise) so narrowing it down (still difficult) it would have to be this photo

this was taken in april 2010, for my 18th birthday dinner. i have to say that this night was one to place in the subconscious pile of eventful, amazing moments in life. in the company of the people i adored, 5 star hotel dining, followed by a messy night clubbing. it was exactly how i wanted my 18th to be, refined and a little wild simultaneously. i remember being in a state of euphoria at this point of life. not a care in the world. uni still being breezy, heart still intact, friends and family by my side. it really was such an amazing night of this year. i still can't help grin whenever i see this. i miss it, but i know life can only get much better than this.

love,

thought# 162- two thousand and nine

Day 2: A photo of yourself a year ago

This was already done but i am not one to be lacking in luvo photos haha so here's a photograph.

love,

thought #161- take a picture, it'll last longer.

once again, ive been sucked into another 30 day challenge haha.

Day 1: Your Facebook profile picture

Taken at Denise's 21st birthday shindig. This photo reminds me of the old school days, I miss them.

thought #153- 2015

Day 30- What you see yourself doing in 5 years time

yay finally finished this challenge! took me at least 3 months rather than 30 days but i'm glad to have followed through and seen its completion haha. i love questions such as these. it conjures feelings of excitement, fear, uncertainty and optimism. i love the thought of aging, maturing, seeing the world and experiencing all its wonders and surprises. so five years... i'll be 23 by that time. finished university, hopefully working where it rewards me internally and financially haha. i hope to have travelled a bit more, moved out perhaps closer to the CBD. i hope im still rooted in church life, seeing my parents often and just enjoying young adulthood. i do hope i've found a significant other at this point too. i just hope to be doing well and loving life, really that's all i could ask.

love

thought #152- we show off our souls not our shirts.

Day 29- What you wore today?

to be honest, i am not very bothered to post pictures so i shall merely attempt to describe.

1. vintage oversized camel/beige mens suede collared shirt
2. black singlet underneath
3. vintage levis DIY denim shorts
4. black semi opaque stockings
5. camel suede desert boots
6. mimco curb chain bracelet in gold.

very alexa inspired i must add. she is after all she is my fashion guru.

love,

thought #151- same mirror, different reflection

Day 28 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

2009

2010

i must say, alot of things have changed since last year. irrespective of the obvious lack of locks (and probably the university stress induced weight gain), i personally feel like a different person. some aspects i am glad to say for the better,  some i must secretly confide in saying for the worst. to be honest, i didn't expect the alteration of life to occur at such a huge and far reaching extent. i mean i was aware and prepared for things to be differently, for different friends, a vastly different atmosphere, a change and challenge in everything i knew and believed in. but it still took me by surprise. life still shocks, even when we knew it would happen.

i question whether i have matured. maybe so. my priorities in life have definitely been challenged. everything that i love and dwell have also been challenged. i guess when your suddenly brought into a place where you actually have to think twice. where people are not as forgiving and loving as the saviour you worship and adore, it really rattles the bones and spirit. i have to say i am different. i'm not as naive, i'm not as cemented. i'm not as sure but neither am i not as wimpy enough to be swayed from side to side. i know i'm not the same as i was previously. whether that is a good thing or bad thing still remains in question every single day.

love,

thought #150- why?

Day 27 - Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

I was bored.
Think of how many beautiful and disastrous fruits came because of this very reason.

thought #149- friends first, lovers second.

Day 26 - What you think about your friends

to be honest i have a heirachy when it comes to friendship. first there are the acquaintances; the people you stick to cheap conversation with, make brief appearances at mutual celebrations, almost strangers almost friends, people you'd sit next to on the bus ride home sort of companions. then there are friends; people you see on a often, folks you would be comfortable to have lunch or see a movie with but would find it odd if they suddenly called you on a daily basis. then there are the close friends; segregated in a special circle. subconsciously divided between the friends you would merely say hello to. these are the friends you would road trip, have a few drinks at a club with, sleepover with. then there are the best friends. the favourites, the privileged few that know the inner sanctum of who you are. the only people to have touched your heart that an imprint was left. these are the people you have tested to be true and loyal regardless of the season, an arguement or distance. these people will disappoint you, hurt you, not always be altogether but regardless love you and appreciate you for who you are. these are the people who you see you at your worst and best and still call you friend. i think friendship is dangerous, an instrument of utter pleasure and simultaneously of destruction. but without friends, life is paltry. we weren't meant to do this confusing sojourn called life on our own.

love,

thought #144- the contents of a woman's handbag is the contents of her soul

its true.

a little bit of my soul.

• kikki k 2010 diary.
• dettol hand sanitizer.
• mimco wallet.
• keys.
• assortment of pens.
• dunhill refined 20.
• green bic lighter.
• ck glasses.
• rayban sunnies.
• oral b dental toothpicks.
• elizabeth arden compact mirror.
• vaseline with aloe vera lip balm.
• eclipse black chill mints
• nokia e63 phone which is in dire need of a replacement. 

love,