thought # 139- you make me smile like a

Day 20- A picture that makes you smile

pretty self explanatory. the question is when doesn't he make me smile?

love

thought #138- aka

Day 19 - Nicknames you have; why do you have them

i have had numerous nicknames in my lifetime, these are a few:

•  abujabi- in year eight when mrs lamplough informed us of a place called abu dabbi  in science, somehow i got involved and got called that for the year.
• abogan- a year nine in- joke with murray, isco, nico, grace and jem.
• asia- only josh baissari calls me this and gets away with it.
• cruzbum- only mads calls me this and she's retarded for doing so haha.
• aboygail- ever since the infamous boy-short chop, it made sense.
• bee/bi- only elle calls me that (short for boyfee) and rana for the latter. 
• babe- only carlo calls me this. gag.
• abidoo- the most embarrassing nickname to be verbalised in public. thanks mum.
• babs- my old church youth call me this. i dont know how it exactly originated but its the name.
• abi- the only normal nickname that makes perfect sense to all mankind. use this one for the love of God please. haha

love,

thought #137- goals to make, rules to break.

  Day 18 - Plans/dreams/goals you have

i have many plans/dreams/goals, sometimes it frightens me because the thought of never fulfilling them leaves me somewhat disappointed. i mean i understand im human and don't control the purpose of my existence but it isn't much harm to dream isn't it? i mean i have the plans for my near future:

• double degree it next year.
• get my P's and a car.
• become employed.
• grow my hair out.
• write and record a cd (for my own pleasure not exactly for fame purposes)
• study in london for a year, travel around europe.
• get a boy.

and then the far, far future:

• graduate uni and find a full-time job.
• become a corporate lawyer.
• move out and find a place. 
• save up for a house deposit.
• do postgraduate study.
• buy my parents a house.
• settle down and get married.
• have a dream wedding.
• have two kids.

but mainly i just want to be content, happy and blessed. i want this life to count, cause there are many times in my current life that the mundane, meaninglessness of my attitude really does wear me down. i hope growing up and seeing these dreams become a reality will provide hope (only with Him). and if i dont see each of them fulfilled, i know it wasn't meant for me and that my list of dreams hasn't ended just yet.




love

ps. i dare you

thought # 136- if i were a boy

Day 17 - Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

this was hard. i can think of at least twenty. but i guess i'd like to be a man. then maybe i could fully comprehend the logic behind dumping a girl, the fright of saying i love you, being physically needy, checking out things other than fashion blogs and perving on other boys, walking in the footsteps of my father, wearing boxers and feeling breezy, looking in the mirror, having the slight bit interest in sport and everything else it includes. then maybe i could be more empathetic. maybe.

love

thought #135- narciscist.

Day 16 - Another picture of yourself

AUGUST 2010
as much as changes go, there really isnt any. except for the increase in metal at the mouth. apart from that, ditto. same old, same old.

thought #134- shuffle

Day 15 - Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

1. mysteries- yeah yeah yeahs. i love karen o's screaming near the end.
2. fire eye'd boy- broken social scene. for when i'm feeling alternative.
3. how to save a life (acoustic)- the fray. its emotional and raw.
4. karma- alicia keys. i love this song, especially in moments of feminist empowerment.
5. in your eyes (acoustic)- ben harper. i adore the fact that it's live.
6. yankee bayonet (i will be home then)- the decemberists. this is a random country-esque song. 
7. you give me something- james morrison. i still really fancy this song. maybe because i fancy morrison's sexy damaged vocals and cheesy lyrics.
8. still here- natasha bedingfield. another emotional song.
9. parallel universe- red hot chili peppers. always need a bit of old school in your system.
10. planet new year- sarah blasko. love this song!

love,

thought #133- familia

Day 14 - A picture of you and your family
this is my familia. taken on my 18th birthday exactly. at that ugly chinese restaurant that my family adore because they make a killer crispy flounder and pork ribs in peking sauce. anyway, we're small in quantity. i am obviously the only member below the 40 year old age bracket, though i don't feel like it at times. there are benefits and disadvantages of growing up with old people.  i've learned to love each member. we've had our moments, our disagreements and eventually we'll seperate when the time comes. but i love them to death. it's true that you can choose your friends but you can't choose your family. and i wouldn't have it any other way.

love